The Closer I Get, the Harder It Becomes—Letting Go Is Overwhelming

I knew this move would be a challenge. What I didn’t realize was just how much of a challenge it would be—not just physically, but emotionally. The further away the move was, the easier everything seemed. It felt like a fun project, an adventure waiting to happen. I had lists, plans, excitement. Saying goodbye to people and places months in advance was almost effortless, because the reality of leaving still felt like it was in the distant future.

But now? Now that my move is just around the corner, the weight of it all is hitting me like a tidal wave.

For months, I’ve been sorting through decades of belongings, carefully choosing what stays, what goes, and what gets packed for my new life in France. I thought I had prepared myself for this transition—I embraced Swedish Death Cleaning, I told myself I wasn’t sentimental about stuff, and I reminded myself that a fresh start was exactly what I wanted. But no amount of preparation could brace me for the feeling of watching everything I’ve built here slowly disappear.

It’s not just the tangible things—the furniture, the books, the little treasures I’ve collected over the years. It’s the people, the places, the habits I didn’t even realize had become part of me. It’s the fact that I won’t just be down the road from my closest friends. I won’t have my familiar grocery store, my go-to coffee shop, my neighbors who always wave. I won’t be able to call someone up and say, Let’s grab lunch—at least, not in the way I always have.

I keep reminding myself: This is what I wanted. This is the change I chose.

And I still believe that. I know this move is right for me. But that doesn’t mean it isn’t hard. That doesn’t mean I don’t wake up some mornings wondering, What am I doing?

I think this is the part no one talks about enough when making a big life transition. We talk about the excitement of something new, the beauty of reinvention, the thrill of possibility. But we don’t always talk about how painful it is to leave behind what’s familiar. How overwhelming it is to stand on the edge of change and feel like you’re not quite ready to jump—even though you know you have to.

So, I’m letting myself feel it all. The sadness, the gratitude, the fear, the hope. Because this move is happening. And despite the waves of emotion, I am excited for what’s ahead.

And speaking of new beginnings, I have a little something to celebrate this next chapter with all of you—our Silver & Sensational Chic Essentials Giveaway!

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No matter where you are in the world, I hope this giveaway brings a little excitement your way. And if you’re outside the U.S., don’t worry—you’ll still be recognized with a special shoutout in the blog if you win!

As I navigate this final stretch before my move, I’ll continue sharing my thoughts here on the blog. While my YouTube videos are on pause indefinitely, this space will remain my way to stay connected. Thank you all for being on this journey with me. It means the world.

Have you ever made a huge life change and felt this wave of emotions? I’d love to hear your experiences—drop me a comment and let’s chat.

🤍, Lois